As a way to continue the conversations in The Biola Hour, we've invited Sam Gassaway to blog her thoughts after each episode. This is a response to Episode 27 on Quarter-life Crises and Calling, found here. Feel free to interact with Sam's thoughts in the comments below or on Twitter (@sgkay47).

I have always had a hard time with the idea of the pursuing God. What do missionaries say when they travel to the darkest places in the world in need of the light? “We need to bring Jesus to these people!” What does the repentant sinner say after realizing the sin in which they are caught? “I just have to turn my eyes back to Jesus.”

If God is of the type to pursue his chosen, why must we continually seek? The prodigal son must return to the Father in repentance to receive the pursuit. God must know we want his blessings before he begins running. But what kind of pursuing God is this?

We must knock before the door is opened. We must seek to be found. We must ask before we receive. Does Jesus humiliating himself by becoming man to die on our behalf justify God sitting back and asking us to look for him?

I really think the answer is yes—and I do not have a cool and calm answer for how to handle that.

The Biola Hour was graced this week with Paul Sohn, leadership coach and author of Quarterlife Calling: a book on being a millennial in a time where we are expected to know what to do with our lives while being profoundly unprepared for the future in general.

Sohn spoke about distinguishing calling from career. In a room of Christian college students, he even dared to advise choosing a major not aimed at a future temporary career, but a life-long calling.

While calling may even be lived out in the form of a hobby, it will stay with you the whole of your existence, Sohn says, and don’t shy away! It’s a wonderful thing to know you have a purpose greater than yourself.

God’s personal invitation to join with him in his glory has eternal implications, and we should not take it lightly. Calling is what Sohn defines as our God-given wiring—your personality meeting your experiences.

So how does the pursuing God fit in with the God who begins molding us in our mother’s womb? Where does the chase come in when God is ever-present and calls us to himself? How does free will factor in when there is an inherent purpose in us to partake in writing an eternal narrative?

I do not have an answer. This is because the answers I have found differ from the answers the next person has, and God is just as loving as he is personal. He is not going to speak to me the way he speaks to you. His answers for me may come in different boxes, with different words, and in different contexts.

His calling on my life is different from yours. And that is okay. In fact, it is very good. The same way it is not my calling to name the animals, it is not Adam’s calling to write the Biola Hour Blog and spread the good news via the English language and journalism.

Finding your calling is a highly subjective process, and we should not begin the journey alone. So perhaps the real quarterlife question is this: where should I begin?