The End (of the beginning)

Hello, my blogdience.

About a year ago, I was in your shoes. High school was coming to a close, and college was just around the corner. Today I want to reflect a bit on what was going on in my head during that time –– a time I like to call the end of the beginning.

I didn’t even begin to think about college until my final semester of high school. I didn’t imagine that college (or anything past high school) would actually ever happen. I lived in my own little world: hanging out with friends, working, playing soccer, and enjoying my last bit of non-adulthood.

However, whether I liked it or not, it was approaching. College. What? College? Yes. COLLEGE.

Thinking about college was stressful. It still is. Even though everyone else started thinking about college right after junior year, I decided to keep it out of my thinking until a later time. When it came time that I actually had to think about it, I was a bit overwhelmed. I was no more prepared to deal with the stress of choosing college than anyone else. There were a few thoughts that lingered in my head that caused a bit of unease in thinking about my college decision.

  1. What if I choose the wrong college?
    This is a thought that ran through my head all the time when deciding on a college. I worried about whether or not my college choice would prove to be a fun experience. Luckily at Biola that has very much been the case. But whatever college you end up choosing, a lot of the experience is what you make of it. There are many instances this year where it wasn’t my circumstances that determined whether my experience was fruitful, it was my own attitude. College is what you make it, so anywhere you choose can be lit (but make it easy on yourself and come to Biola ;) ).
  2. Do I really have to leave my fam??
    It can be a very strange experience to leave your fam, especially when you move out-of-state for college, especially in regards to leaving your family. I didn’t even fully realize how much I would miss them until I actually had to live without seeing them every day. Luckily you will see them again in as little as a few months. Even so, you can call, text, and FaceTime them. Even still, make the most of your time with them before you leave! You will miss them.
  3. COLLEGE IS SO HARD AND I’M NOT READY.
    College was very intimidating for me. From what people told me about it, I expected it to be impossible. This is very much not the case. College is definitely challenging, and it is definitely a lot of work, but it’s definitely not too much to handle. You just have to be diligent, productive, and you need to learn when to say no (I’m not very good at any of these, and I managed to pull off pretty good grades).

I hope I was able to ease some of your stressful thoughts about college!

Sincerely,

Blakey Bell