Hello. Hello. Hello.
I wanted to say "hello" a few more times than usual since I won’t be getting to greet you guys anymore after this blog. Unfortunately, this is the last blog that I will write for Biola as a Student Ambassador. As many of the bloggers are probably doing as well, I want to look back on this year a little bit.
I was looking back through my blog posts over the course of this year and I thought it was very interesting to see how I have grown over the course of the year. I chuckled as I scrolled through because I feel like I am not the same person as I was just six to eight months ago.
I know that I will look back at my old blogs in a year or so and just think, stereotypical freshman. Based on the titles alone, it seemed like my head was swirling as I was trying to get used to college life. The first semester was especiall crazy for me as I was trying to figure out who I was and how I was supposed to express that in my daily interactions.
Right now, however, I feel like I’m in a place that is fairly secure. I know that where God has me is where I need to be, even if I don’t know exactly what here specifically looks like. I know that this year has been one where I have learned to trust God with Every. Little. Detail. What if I don’t know how to do something? God does. What if I don’t know how to defuse a tense situation? God can. What if I don’t know what He wants me to pursue next? God will lead me. As simple as that may sound, it drastically changes your view on life. It lifts the burden off of your shoulders as you learn to live life freely and lightly.
I feel like I’ve had a pretty eventful freshman year in a lot of ways. It has been very heavy in ways that I never thought it would be, and it has been extremely goofy in other ways. If I was asked to give one analogy to describe how my first year of college has gone, I would definitely describe it as a roller coaster. It has had many ups and downs. It has felt like I’ve been upside down at times. After a trudging climb to a high point, things have just raced downwards in what feels like an instant. But through it all, it has been exhilarating. I have learned to find joy in the crazy movements of it all.
As you guys are finishing up (or have already finished) your senior year, there are so many unknowns as you start the process of getting ready for college. Right now, you are standing in line for the roller coaster ahead of you. There might be some nervousness and anxiousness while you wait, but let me tell you, the ride is incredible. Be fully present in it and make the most out of every up and down, every twist and turn. Because once you get off the ride, your year is done and you can’t go back and change your experience.
It has been so much fun sharing with you all this year. I wish you all the best as you hopefully are coming to Biola. I’m praying for you and your journey as well.
Also, if you see me around campus, feel free to say hi! Trust me, I don’t bite. Most of the time.